7 Tips for Violinists Who Feel Discomfort While Playing

Question: I feel stiffness and discomfort when I play my violin. What can I do?

I specialize in helping violinists discover more freedom and ease in the mind and body while practicing and performing, thereby reducing or eliminating pain, tension, and anxiety. Here are just a few tips to point you in a more comfortable direction:

1. First, get in the habit of doing 5-20 minutes (the more the better!) of Constructive Rest with my “3 Magic Phrases” before you start practicing. You can download a free guide to learn how to do this from the purple box in the right sidebar.

2. Walking around or letting yourself dance a bit when you play is a fun way to remind yourself that your joints can be free and movable even while you play.

3. Don’t stiffen your legs while you play. No locked knees!

4. I don’t care what your teacher said – make sure your eyes don’t get fixed to one spot as you play – NOTHING should EVER be fixed or stuck in one place!  The point is to be aware as often as possible that you are free and mobile on the inside of you, so that you can learn to be outwardly relatively still, while you are free on the inside.

Your music will easily move your audience
when YOU are movable!

5. Playing an instrument is all about experimenting. There is NO right way to do anything at the violin!! (Or any other instrument, for that matter!) There are ways that are better for you, or less helpful for you. YOU are the one who knows what is best for you. Make the time to really listen to what your body is telling you, and be gentle with yourself.

6. When you’re in discomfort, only do very short bits of practicing at a time (just a few minutes), and take LOTS of breaks.

7. HAVE FUN!!! If you’re not enjoying yourself and you’re uncomfortable, it’s time to take a break and look around at all the beauty and peace in the world around you! There’s more to life than your discomfort, thank God.

These are just a few tips for beginners AND professionals. It doesn’t matter what skill level you are, and it doesn’t matter what your particular circumstances are. We are all human beings who tend to forget about the “being” part; somehow we think we’re human “doings”!

We need to remember to stop and listen to the inner wisdom we carry around within us all the time, which is full of life, breath, and movement at all times.

Learn to “Stop – think – play”,
and the most important of those is “stop”.

I wish you well!! If you’re interested in learning more about The Art of Freedom and the Alexander Technique to help you find a centered, easier way to play, let me know! I currently have openings for online lessons and classes, so it doesn’t matter where you live – I can help. 🙂

Practicing Don Juan with Alexander Technique and My Inner Critic!

I’ve been doing a lot of deep work with myself, my violin, and the Alexander Technique when I practice these days.

I’m discovering anew that making real, fundamental change can be scary, because it means confronting the Unknown and experiencing the feeling out of being control, and meeting aspects of myself I’d rather not look at because I don’t like them!

In this video, I’m giving myself time to experiment with sticking to AT principles while lifting the bow and practicing the opening of Don Juan. Practicing in this way is very confronting, and I find myself face-to-face immediately with my inner critic.

The only way to quiet this critic is, surprisingly, to COMPLETELY IGNORE the fact that I’m playing the violin, and direct my thinking to my Alexander Technique thoughts with vigilance! Not easy to do, this will require a lot of practice, bit by bit, over time.

It’s also scary because it feels like I don’t know how to play the violin anymore, and it sounds terrible to me – even though it’s not so bad when I listen to the recording later.

I will continue on with this self-disciplining practice because I KNOW that I am improving in this way. But what an adventure…self-knowledge and transformation requires COURAGE…it’s not for the faint of heart!!

Thankfully, artists are BRAVE!

And… I have all the time in the world. 🙂

Your comments are welcome, as always.

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Stress-Free Practicing #3: Achieving Goals and “End-Gaining”

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Food for Thought #3: “End-Gaining”

There’s a concept in the Alexander Technique called “End-Gaining”. Simply put, end-gaining is when you’re too attached to the outcome and don’t pay enough attention to the steps required to get there.

We all have goals. Goals are essential to keep us motivated and excited about moving forward.

But caring too much about a goal introduces an element of unnecessary tension, which will actually make achieving your goals HARDER.

It may seem paradoxical, but letting go of your NEED to achieve your goal, while methodically paying attention to the Here-And-Now “means-whereby” – the steps required to arrive at your goal – instead, is THE KEY to doing your best work. It’s the secret to efficient and effective practicing.

Stop caring so much about the future.

Put aside your future desires, and trust that things will work out in whatever way is best for you. NOW is more important, so focus on what is necessary RIGHT NOW. Don’t waste energy on something that doesn’t even exist yet.

What can you do NOW? What is essential? What do you need to pay attention to now? Let’s get our priorities in order, and make the reality of here and now the center of our attention.

One step at a time.

No rush (rushing includes unhelpful tension).

All in good time!

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The #1 MISTAKE Musicians Make When They Go Onstage

Can you guess what the #1 MISTAKE is that musicians make onstage?

I think the biggest mistake we make when we walk into the spotlight is TO FORGET WHO WE REALLY ARE. 

We forget that we are not just a performer, or violinist, or musician….

We forget that we are a WHOLE PERSON.
Human, and perfectly imperfect!

A whole person who is having an experience of sharing that Self – through music – with the audience who has come to hear what we have to say.

Who is the performer?

A mind – with thoughts that either help or hinder.
A body – with a head, neck, arms, and feet.
A soul/spirit – with emotions and a heart full of life.
A personality – with a past that has served to bring you here.
A vessel – a channel for the music to express itself.

Each person is unique and brings a lifetime of stories and experience to the stage.

The audience can tell IMMEDIATELY – within the first few seconds – more about us than we might ever wish to be seen!

To be a performer is by definition to be vulnerable and exposed…
To be an ARTIST is to know this and allow this, with whole-Self expression and open-ness.

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THE KEY TO CONQUERING PERFORMANCE ANXIETY…

…IS TO EXPERIENCE WHO YOU ARE, HAVING THE EXPERIENCE YOU ARE HAVING, IN THE PRESENT MOMENT
.

With total acceptance. Free of judgment…. doing the best we can do.

 A tall order? YES. But perfectly possible to learn…as soon as you remember that performance anxiety includes the body and everything else that you are.

And once you start getting to know and accept – AND LOVE – the mind-body you are living in, you will start to find the kind of peaceful ease within yourself that you want to carry onstage, that gives you a sense of confident calm that can handle ANYTHING that comes your way.

This is not abstract. This is real, and there are concrete and PRACTICAL ways to learn this. I will be teaching you how to aim yourself in this direction in every class of “Effortless Music-Making”, my upcoming course starting this Sunday.

Curious? Check out my YouTube channel and browse around… see some of my practice and performance videos, and see how I do my best to practice what I’m talking about here.

ONE STEP AT A TIME.

 Let me show you the direction!

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With Love in Music-Making,

Jennifer

 

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What’s an Intelligent Way to Improve a Musical Passage?

In case you missed “Jennifer’s 10-Day EASY Holiday Practice Challenge”, I thought I’d share some of the content from the emails here, including the daily “Food for Thought” ideas. This post is #2 in a series of blogposts highlighting all 10 days!

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FOOD FOR THOUGHT #2

What’s an intelligent way to work on improving a musical passage? What do you notice?

– Start with a very clear INTENTION.
– STOP DOING what is unnecessary, to allow for optimal coordination, awareness, and responsiveness to the moment (Alexander Technique teaches this).

 – TRUST the system within you that organizes and coordinates everything you do.
– Let go and PLAY! Observe yourself with detachment as you play, making the whole more important than the parts.
– STOP.
–  THINK about what happened. What did you notice? Where was your attention? What actually happened? Where is the evidence?
– STOP. If you want to do it again, don’t try harder, don’t do the same thing that didn’t work, and don’t work hard at doing it differently, either.
– Instead, do some constructive thinking! THINK to create another clear intention for doing it differently next time.
– REPEAT these steps.

SIMPLIFIED:

– THINK

– STOP

– TRUST

– PLAY

…REPEAT!

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Stress-Free Practicing #1: What’s Your WHY?

In case you missed “Jennifer’s 10-Day EASY Holiday Practice Challenge”, I thought I’d share some of the content from the emails here, including the daily “Food for Thought” ideas. This post is the first in a series of blogposts highlighting all 10 days!

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Last month, more than 200 people joined “Jennifer’s 10-Day EASY Holiday Practice Challenge”, which was a huge success!

(Sign up for upcoming challenges here:  >> Jennifer’s Practice Challenges.)

During the Challenge, I sent a daily email with “Food for Thought” and a “Practice Challenge”, both designed to keep practicing simple and engaging over the stressful holiday season.

Dozens of practice videos were shared in our special Facebook group, and a ton of constructive and loving feedback was shared to help each other reach our practice goals with ease. Some pretty moving personal breakthroughs were shared, too. This has become my favorite way to practice!

 

FOOD FOR THOUGHT #1

What’s Your WHY?

When there’s an activity that you carry out every single day over a long period of time, it’s easy to lose sight of WHY you’re doing it.
 
Today, let’s reconnect to our deepest purpose for practicing.
 
Why do you practice?
 
Why do you play your instrument/sing?
 
Why are you a musician?
 
What do you love most about music?
 
What do you love the most about your instrument (and that includes you singers, since YOU are your instrument)?
 
No need to answer these questions exhaustively. Just some food for thought to touch on, to get the creative practicing juices flowing in a meaningful way.
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What Can a Musician/Artist Do When Uninspired?

Alexander Technique musiciansI like the idea that came to me one day, that there are little “Doubt-Monsters” (DM) (see this post) that like to make us think negative thoughts and feel negative feelings that get in our way, preventing us from creating our best work.
There’s a little DM called Fraud-Monster, haha, and he tends to visit every artist on this planet, I suspect!
Shedding the light on him is a really good idea. So I thought I’d share a bit of my own personal process, in answer to the question, “What does a musician do when uninspired, feeling like a fraud?”
When I feel uninspired, I stop.

Everything.

And I remember what Inspiration means to me.

Inspire also means in-breath… and it also has the root of the word “spirit” in it.
So it reminds me about the breath of spirit. When I’m uninspired, I’ve forgotten about this, and I realize I need to re-connect with what gives me life – breath – spirit.Alexander Technique teacher musicians

The essence of that is the same as the essence of my music and all creativity.

Without remembering that, and touching the Source of it all, I am left flailing about purposelessly, and the things I do lose their meaning and become joyless.

So, when I’m uninspired, I need to remind myself of what’s truly important to me.

Sometimes re-connecting with myself in this way is easy, and sometimes it can take days…

There are specific tools and practices that I find helpful, and the Alexander Technique is right up there at the top.

Walking outside in the beauty of nature is another thing that usually lifts my spirits and changes my breathing right away. But sometimes, even that is slow to shift things for me. But I do it anyway, because the rhythmic movement and the support of nature are essential and soothing, and this touches my heart.

Then, sometimes I see something beautiful, too, and that inspires me and makes me smile.

Or I see a child laugh…or a bird fly by…
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Or I see others suffering and it makes me feel my own suffering more deeply, and I realize this suffering is not mine – it is the suffering of all humanity. This makes my heart go out to the world, and the focus lifts off of my own misery for just a moment, lightening my burden.

Sometimes, feeling uninspired is a sign that I’ve forgotten how connected we all are, and I’ve stopped feeling the pain of the universe, because it’s just too much to bear.

But the only way to the light at the other end of the tunnel is through it, and the best pearls that shine brightly are found at the bottom of the sea.

So when I feel sad or overwhelmed or lifeless, I swim deep and look for the Light, and I breathe and feel reassured that goodness is indeed within. Within myself and all of humanity.

Hope brings me back up and out of the depths.

And throughout all of this, it is possible to express everything through my music…the pain and the ugliness as well as the light and the joy. I play for myself and I play for you and the rest of the world all around me.

It’s all in there and everywhere, waiting to be loved and accepted for what it is.

So… all in good time…. this too shall pass. This is my experience.

Alexander Technique musiciansThe answers lie in the asking and the wondering, and as long as we are looking for ease and light, we will find them, sooner or later.

All in good time.

To me, this is how the creative process necessarily works, and inspiration will come when it’s good and ready, not one moment before.
… and just one more thing…
Fraud-Monster is the one that tries to get us to think it is our ego-personality that creates the music and does the inspiring.

Fraud-Monster wants us to forget that we are not in control of inspiration.
All we can really do is open up to noticing what is, with love and acceptance, waiting patiently while we look to beauty to reveal itself.
Love and Light are not man-made.
But we can participate in them, and appreciate them as Life’s Wonder.
How INSPIRING this is to me!!!
I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments section!

Transforming My Negative Thoughts on Taking an Audition

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I worked on the cadenza of the Tschaikovsky concerto today.

The hardest thing about practicing for me these days is the idea that I only have a short amount of time to prepare for an audition at the end of January. That’s less than two months from now.

And there is SO much music to prepare….

Here’s a list of unhelpful thoughts I’m dealing with as they come up in reaction to the idea of doing this audition:

1.       I don’t have enough time

2.       There’s too much music for me to prepare

3.       I don’t have enough time to learn new excerpts I’ve never played before

4.       I’m out of shape, and out of practice

5.       I don’t have the endurance that I should have to prepare for this audition

6.       I don’t want to embarrass myself

7.       I want to play everything well

When I work with my students, I often suggest that they make a list of reactive thoughts such as this one, and really FEEL what each thought is doing to the body as it’s being thought, so that it becomes really clear whether they are helping or not.

I’m going to experiment with each of those thoughts for myself right now. How do I feel when I think them?

……(experimenting)…..

1.       Instant pushing myself forward, feeling hurried, cringing, compressing, tight arms, turtle-neck-pulling in and down, more fearful thoughts arise instantly and take me into a negative downwards spiral.

2.       Collapse. My whole body starts to feel heavy. Emotionally, I begin to feel hopeless and overwhelmed. More negative thoughts follow: “Oh, my God…. I can’t do this……..”…. fear.

3.       Combination of 1+2

4.       Confusion, stress, startle response leads to: “I don’t know what to do,” and feelings of helplessness…

5.       “I’m weak.” Sadness. Sense of failure. Heavy, collapsed chest. My back starts to ache.

6.       I want to hide. My body pulls inwards and compresses. Tight legs, slumping shoulders…

7.       I feel myself going into “fighting” mode, and my inner competitor thinks, “I can do this! I’ll show them! I’m going to work really really hard and do my best, and everybody will be impressed at how well I play and how I was able to overcome all odds to be successful and play well at this audition!!” … and everything in my body gets tight as I push myself forwards and gear up my muscles to barge full steam ahead into WORK!!! (Ouch….. there’s NO WAY I could keep this up for even one day!)

And more…

Breathing.

I stop for a moment, realizing that I don’t like the results of thinking those unhelpful thoughts, so I choose to STOP. RIGHT NOW.

No more thinking like that!!!

It’s a recipe for pain, exhaustion, and overall malaise.

That’s not for me.

What can I do instead???

How can I work towards the goal of taking this audition while still taking care of myself and remaining true to what is even more important to me – my Peace and well-being on all planes?

First…. Just….. STOP.

Ahhh, everything softens. I find Ease….

How easy is my neck?

I smile, ready to continue with my practicing, away from the violin, and away from this laptop.

In the next moment, I continue to stop, remembering:

I am free

I have time and space

I don’t have to do anything…….

And I wonder about Ease as I find it.

This is the only way to prepare for an audition that will fully express Who I Am. And I don’t want to show them anything other than That. Win or lose… this is the way I win myself. What better outcome could I enjoy than to enjoy being Who I Am, through music? To emerge happy and whole, content with whatever transpires, knowing I am living the way I want to live… THAT is my goal, and that is my NOW.

The Art of Freedom and the Alexander Technique. NOW.

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How Musicians Can Smile Through Stress…Even Though It FEELS LIKE HELL!!!

I haven’t written about this before, because it has seemed too personal. But being a musician…an artist…a human being……is PERSONAL.

carnegie-hall-backI have been striving for MANY years to integrate all aspects of my self, and that includes my work.

Many people believe in separating “work” from “play”. People talk about leaving the work at the office…. leaving business out of our personal lives.

That works if you want it to be that way, but that means you’re creating a division in your life. That may be good and necessary at times.

But artists – TRUE artists – can’t really do that…not REALLY…
So I believe.Alexander Technique Cincinnati musicians

Because EVERYTHING that you are as an artist goes into your art, whether you like it or not. Whether you try to hide it or expose it.  Your sound reflects who you are, and there’s just no way around it. Music exposes the heart.

My work is my art. My work is play. My work is what makes me happy, and what makes me happy enlivens and beautifies my work.

Sometimes, life is not easy. Sometimes it’s dreadfully hard. People die. People get sick. People suffer. Relationships end, and people are lonely. Many people have barely enough of what is necessary to survive. Wars and terror happen. Natural disasters strike.

An artist knows that all of our suffering… that “stuff of life”… needs to go into our art, just like the “good stuff”. It really IS all or nothing. And that kind of all-consuming devotion to our art is what saves us and brings hope to the world, because it expresses the truth. It’s REAL.

Credit: Hosam Katan/Reuters

Credit: Hosam Katan/Reuters

Nathan Milstein, one of the greatest violinists of all time, and with whom I was fortunate enough to spend five summers studying as a teenager, had his violin around him all the time – just close enough to pick it up and figure out the next thing he was working on. He was always experimenting. Always trying out new fingerings, new bowings, new ways to shape a phrase.

I am a violinist. A musician. A mind-body expert who practices the Alexander Technique, which I consider an essential ingredient to creating my art. Practicing it is an art in itself. I call it practicing my “Primary Instrument”, which is myself – the self that I bring to everything I do. It’s with me all the time.

So my life is my art, and I participate in its creation in a sense, because I am aware that I am making choices that shape my life in every moment. Each and every choice is important, because it leads me to the next moment – the next note in my life.

307155_512725698747965_1440730856_nI’ve spoken recently about the extreme stress in my life these days. Without prayer/meditation (which for me is an act of opening myself up to something bigger and more powerful than myself for support and guidance), without the Alexander Technique, and without the presence of those close to me who love me daily, I would be sunk.

I’m going through a long and difficult divorce after 25 years of marriage (I was very young), and my younger son is ill again, with no help whatsoever forthcoming from doctors (please don’t ask, but your moral support is welcome), and I am facing life on my own for the first time in my life, as an artist who doesn’t make much money and is pretty clueless about supporting myself in the world.

That’s the truth. Time to grow up. LOTS to learn – and quick. With patience, and without rushing. Very much like a college student who hasn’t graduated yet, I’m looking at what my options are, and wondering what next month will bring. Except that I’ve got a million responsibilities, including two teenagers who need me.

It takes all the courage in the world to have a clear vision for the future, and to keep sticking to principle, keeping myself healthy and sane despite the stress. In fact, when I manage it well, I actually THRIVE under the pressure – even though I “lose it” sometimes, just like anybody else.

I can honestly say that the difficulty I’m experiencing these days is(and I chuckle at the irony as I write this!) the best thing that’s ever happened to me.

IT SURE DOESN’T FEEL THAT WAY BECAUSE IT FEELS PRETTY DARNED AWFUL RIGHT NOW!!! (The scared and hurt part inside of me screams…..!)

But I know that it is. I know that in a few years I’ll look back and say, WOW, it’s amazing how a period of such difficulty did me so much good, in every way!

I just KNOW it.

And that faith keeps me going, and allows me to laugh and smile, feeling the hope that hides behind the clouds.


 

The Alexander Technique is an essential resource for me. It reminds me to STOP, OBSERVE, AND ACT:

STOP everything I’m doing that’s unhelpful, especially when I’m overwhelmed and just can’t handle things anymore, because it’s all too much to bear

OBSERVE that I am very small and powerless (which confers a necessary humility which opens me up to the infinite All-Possible, through prayer or meditation)

ACT on what I know, by sticking to Principle. My personal principles, and universal principles, including those of the Alexander Technique. To do what is possible RIGHT NOW, and only RIGHT NOW.

I remember my Freedom Directions: “I am free”, “I don’t have to do anything,” and “I have time and space”, and I pay attention to Ease and my head-neck relationship. And things get easier… INSTANTLY.


Tears are the stuff of good music. So is laughter. I am grateful for both, throughout this difficult time. Grateful for love and light, and for the pressures that only serve to make me stronger, with Grace.

So you see… everything I experience goes into my art. I am not interested in separation. I am interested in unity. Love, not fear.

Mind + Body + Soul + Spirit + Others + World + Play + Work = ME

The Self is all I’ve got, and it’s everything. This is what gets shared through my music, and this is what gets shared through what I write here. That’s why I don’t take much time to edit what I write, by the way. You get it all – including typos when I miss them. 😉

Life isn’t always easy, and that’s OK. It’s what we choose to do with it when we remember that matters. And by writing and making music, I make it easier for myself, and I bring myself a smile of light from the darkness. Hopefully, also for you, my readers and listeners, and fellow human beings.

With Love,

Jennifer

p.s. Your comments here are always very welcome. I love the personal connection. 🙂

p.p.s. Written later on the same day…
I made a commitment at the beginning of the week to start practicing every day again. It was 11:30pm when I finally took out my violin, and decided to play through the opening of Mozart’s 5th concerto, a  piece I haven’t played in many, many years (maybe 26?). My younger son video recorded my run-through for me. Here’s the result, memory slips and all… after a very exhausting day. Music is magical… The world needs it sorely. At least I do! 🙂

Here’s the link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kd9eMdhlJvE&index=1

No More High Heels For Me!!

Alexander Technique violinI’m writing this during the intermission of a concert I’m playing with Apollo’s Fire, the Cleveland Baroque Orchestra, because I just experienced an interesting phenomenon with my shoes!

I always recommend to my students NOT to wear high-heeled shoes, because they greatly alter our experience of balance, and that can impact our performance – whether we are conscious of it or not.

We humans are not designed to have our heels perched up high on a platform while most of our weight falls into the balls of the feet and toes. It’s just common sense that this has the potential to “throw us off”.

Even though I feel strongly against their use (in fact, I like to go BAREFOOT onstage whenever I feel like it and it seems appropriate – and it doesn’t go against a group’s dress code), I occasionally still choose to wear heels – just for fun.

Considering that as an Alexander Teacher I have a pretty good understanding of what I’m doing with myself when I’m wearing heels, I figure that it’s worth playing around with them sometimes (besides, women do look good wearing them in our culture), and it can’t affect me TOO much, if I pay attention and apply my Alexander thinking.

In fact, I wore heels in the concert last night, and I had no problem with them.

HOWEVER….. I’m writing this now because tonight’s experience was radically different from last night!

Alexander Technique musicWhat made it so different was that I’ve spent literally hours today paying a lot of attention to how I’m using my mind-body-self by applying Alexander Technique constructive thinking to my activities. All of that paying attention has increased my sensitivity throughout the day, and I’ve become more and more aware of subtle changes within my body-mind and how my thinking improves the flow of my movements.

So……

To my great surprise, I had an extremely unpleasant time playing the first piece of the program tonight in those heels!

Tonight, I was acutely aware of how those heels were throwing me off-balance, causing me to work too hard by creating excess tension in order to compensate to prevent myself from toppling forward!

Keep in mind that these were the SAME shoes and the SAME music I played just last night without any problem.

But the reality is that last night, my system was surely creating all the same tension, but I wasn’t aware of it. Tonight, my body was screaming at me with its excess tension, and that made it harder for me to think, added a twinge of performance anxiety to a program I had NO nervous reaction to last night, and generally interfered with my playing.

HOW INTERESTING!!

Well, what did I learn from this?

  • Wearing heels is NOT helpful! I knew it before, but this was a very strong reminder that it’s true!
  • Paying attention and applying the Alexander Technique throughout the day is the BEST way I know to learn about what is actually happening in the moment, what helps me improve or not, and my increased sensitivity and awareness make me a better musician.

So what did I do about those shoes?

After that unpleasant first piece, I went offstage (I wasn’t playing the second piece) and told one of my colleague violinists in the group what I was experiencing, and she let me borrow her flat shoes for the rest of the concert.

PHEW! WHAT A RELIEF!! (Thanks, Emi! 🙂 )

You can bet that I will NOT be wearing those heels again tomorrow or the next day… and maybe not any other day EVER AGAIN. Performing with heels is an experiment I have no interest in making again any time soon!

I’d love to hear about your experiences performing in heels. Comments welcome!